Rebelmom:
Welcome and you came to the right place for advice and support. It will do wonders for you along with possibly seeing a therapist and looking to your higher power for peace - if you believe.
My story is below. Most of us are in different stages of being through "the mill". You will gain a wealth of knowledge here by reading and posting - I did. This is a non judgement area as well.
You realized there is a problem and you need help. That is the first step. Others will be along soon with their thoughts.
Hang in there.
