Just wanted to update on difficult child. He is still on dialysis, kidneys showing no sign of working on their own yet. He still has no feeling in his right leg, cantv even wiggle his toes. Yesterday they put in another more long term catheter port for his dialysis. He messed himself up so badly this time. :-( When I showed up to visit last night, he was extremely agitated and irritable. I think perhaps he's having some withdrawal? He still talks about getting out of the hospital and going right back to his apartment. He just doesn't get it!? He couldn't walk up the stairs to get INTO his apartment right now if he tried. Not to mention he nearly killed himself, AGAIN... and he wants to go right back to it??? I just don't even know what to say to him anymore. Our visits are very quiet. He wants me to bring his cell phone to him at the hospital. I have ignored his requests so far. I do not want him calling up someone to bring him something he shouldn't have up to the hospital. Im struggling with that decision, but I'd never forgive myself if something happened by me proving those contacts right now. Ugh. Just so tired.