So things have not really been great for us in the ol' Totoro house hold. No pay for 2 months. We have put all of our savings back into our company just to keep afloat and to pay the couple of employees we have etc, etc... It is make or break time husband and I have been having some pretty heavy talks about what to do. Our house up in Idaho has not sold. Last thing we want to do is move back. We just can't afford to keep paying for Idaho and rent here plus all of the bills for both places. We have been talking about going up for the summer to take care of some things, with the girls. Yesterday husband went to pay rent for here, the land lord who is so nice and such a good guy started to break down basically told husband that he has to put the house back on the market he is so broke and has to drop the price by 1/3! He is letting us have this next month to get our stuff organized and then we can stay in it until School is out. The showings will start in April. We have to move in May. Right before husband came home with that little chestnut, I was outside planting some Strawberries for N I heard a loud cracking sound and turned to see K open handed slapping Dexter hard, very hard across the face. I just stood there. She did it 3 times before I screamed at her, "What are you doing!" I was shaking, I told her to go to her room. She was scared. Right then husband came home. I had to walk outside for a minute to just breathe... I went in after a few minutes to talk to her. I just don't think she gets it. We know she can't be left alone with him, but I can't even turn my back. My mind is reeling. She is falling behind in School. She is having so many social issues. We are talking about homeschooling them if we go back. School in Idaho is NOT an option. We would travel back here for Doctors... this is as far as my mind has gotten. The only positive is that the outdoors and the nature is so good for them. THere is so much more and so many more things for them to do then here. The Northwest is just amazing. I just can't think right now. I just need a day off. It has been so long.