Hello All!
I come to this wonderful group once again. I am really gonna try to keep this short but I am seeking help from others that might have gone through this.
First I will start off by saying that I was finally able to get my difficult child on the waiting list for a Residential Treatment Center (RTC) about 2 hours from my house.
This past Friday night my difficult child and difficult child 1 decided to run away. Besides the fact that neither of them were dressed appropriately for the cold weather and were out all night long, my difficult child had taken a new medicine(Trazadone) that night. In the past when difficult child took this medication, within a hour, difficult child would be passed out. My mom and I were so worried and wasn't even sure that they would not get into a car with someone to get somewhere. Before they ran away, there had not been any arguing or fighting so neither of us understood why they would do this. I won't get into alot of details unless someone wants me to. So I will say that the police had to be called out after we got home from picking them up from the police department. After the police left, difficult child and I were sitting on the couch talking...calmly, no yelling or arguing when difficult child "flipped"! I have seen him do alot of things but he went from being totally calm to throwing himself back hitting his head on the wall, standing up screaming and punching hisself in the face about 8-9 times before I was able to restrain him from doing any damage. While restraining, difficult child made the usual threats and wishes. He threatened to have me locked up(he knows this will cause problems at work bc I work for a police department) and he wishes I would die.
The police had to be called back out when difficult child flipped and difficult child actually DID IT! difficult child told the officer that I hit him in the head and I got arrested! I am freakin devastated! I was arrested for the first time in my life for something I did NOT do. I was put on administrative leave at work. They have reinstated me to return to work, however, I am taking some time off because I just feel like I need some time to process all this. CPS was called and they placed difficult child in his father's care. My job is on the line at this point. If I get convicted of this charge, I automatically lose my job because I cannot have any convictions of family violence.
I have not spoken to difficult child since then and other than wanting to ask why, I don't want to talk to him. I have already met with my attorney to sign over all my rights. I have given up everything for difficult child and he has abused me for the last couple of years and now this!
If there is anyone that has gone through this, please contact me. I would like to talk to someone who might understand the feelings I am experiencing.
Broken hearted & hurting,
Deni
I come to this wonderful group once again. I am really gonna try to keep this short but I am seeking help from others that might have gone through this.
First I will start off by saying that I was finally able to get my difficult child on the waiting list for a Residential Treatment Center (RTC) about 2 hours from my house.
This past Friday night my difficult child and difficult child 1 decided to run away. Besides the fact that neither of them were dressed appropriately for the cold weather and were out all night long, my difficult child had taken a new medicine(Trazadone) that night. In the past when difficult child took this medication, within a hour, difficult child would be passed out. My mom and I were so worried and wasn't even sure that they would not get into a car with someone to get somewhere. Before they ran away, there had not been any arguing or fighting so neither of us understood why they would do this. I won't get into alot of details unless someone wants me to. So I will say that the police had to be called out after we got home from picking them up from the police department. After the police left, difficult child and I were sitting on the couch talking...calmly, no yelling or arguing when difficult child "flipped"! I have seen him do alot of things but he went from being totally calm to throwing himself back hitting his head on the wall, standing up screaming and punching hisself in the face about 8-9 times before I was able to restrain him from doing any damage. While restraining, difficult child made the usual threats and wishes. He threatened to have me locked up(he knows this will cause problems at work bc I work for a police department) and he wishes I would die.
The police had to be called back out when difficult child flipped and difficult child actually DID IT! difficult child told the officer that I hit him in the head and I got arrested! I am freakin devastated! I was arrested for the first time in my life for something I did NOT do. I was put on administrative leave at work. They have reinstated me to return to work, however, I am taking some time off because I just feel like I need some time to process all this. CPS was called and they placed difficult child in his father's care. My job is on the line at this point. If I get convicted of this charge, I automatically lose my job because I cannot have any convictions of family violence.
I have not spoken to difficult child since then and other than wanting to ask why, I don't want to talk to him. I have already met with my attorney to sign over all my rights. I have given up everything for difficult child and he has abused me for the last couple of years and now this!
If there is anyone that has gone through this, please contact me. I would like to talk to someone who might understand the feelings I am experiencing.
Broken hearted & hurting,
Deni