SearchingForRainbows
Active Member
It's been awhile since I've been able to post because of internet problems. However, I could have posted yesterday but didn't because I know that once I post this, I'm going to have to try harder to get back on track.
I'm still not able to exercise as much as I want to because I still have Archilles Tendonitis. Since it was first diagnosed in March, I've been getting more and more frustrated. I've tried so many other ways to relieve stress, but, for me, nothing works the way lots of aerobic exercise does. And for me, nothing works the way a nice long run does. I know I'm crazy but I actually enjoy running!!!
I've been told by my doctor that I can increase my aerobic activity as long as I'm careful and pay attention to the signals my body is giving me. The truth is that if I jog at a slow pace one day, the next day I can't. And, I still can't jog on any sort of incline.
Meanwhile, I've been under lots of stress. As some of you know who have been following my posts, I'm currently preparing to go to hearing to get an appropriate school placement for difficult child 2. I'm spending lots of energy and time preparing for this. Even though I have help from friends, advocates and an attorney, it is still one of the most stressful events I've experienced in the last few years.
difficult child 1 will be 18 in six months. Unfortunately, difficult child 1 has his head in the clouds. While he claims to want to be out on his own, all of his actions point towards total dependence on us. I WILL NOT LET THIS HAPPEN. One way or another, difficult child 1 WILL move out of my house!!!
easy child is going through her own issues. Even though she is still a easy child, she is a "typical teen." She has morphed into a person I hardly recognize most of the time... At least this will pass, BUT not soon enough for me.
Financially, husband and I are struggling as so many others are. This just adds to all of the above stress.
And, I've gained four pounds!!! To my credit, I still eat healthy. I make sure I eat lots of fruits and veggies, drink lots of water, etc... The problem is that no matter what I learn or know intellectually, I'm still an emotional eater. I don't know if I feel any better or not, but at least I've confessed. I AM AN EMOTIONAL EATER!!! I NEED TO STOP!!!
I'm hoping that by finally having the courage to post this morning, I'll get back on track. I know I can't hide behind the excuse that I can't run, but honestly, it is extremely difficult for me to change the one coping mechanism that always kept me on track.
So, for me, it is just the same old pattern rearing it's ugly head again. I'm not sure what is going to take for me to change it. I just know that I need to get a handle on this emotional eating thing before I outgrow my clothes.
I honestly don't know why I'm unable to change this pattern. WFEN
I'm still not able to exercise as much as I want to because I still have Archilles Tendonitis. Since it was first diagnosed in March, I've been getting more and more frustrated. I've tried so many other ways to relieve stress, but, for me, nothing works the way lots of aerobic exercise does. And for me, nothing works the way a nice long run does. I know I'm crazy but I actually enjoy running!!!
I've been told by my doctor that I can increase my aerobic activity as long as I'm careful and pay attention to the signals my body is giving me. The truth is that if I jog at a slow pace one day, the next day I can't. And, I still can't jog on any sort of incline.
Meanwhile, I've been under lots of stress. As some of you know who have been following my posts, I'm currently preparing to go to hearing to get an appropriate school placement for difficult child 2. I'm spending lots of energy and time preparing for this. Even though I have help from friends, advocates and an attorney, it is still one of the most stressful events I've experienced in the last few years.
difficult child 1 will be 18 in six months. Unfortunately, difficult child 1 has his head in the clouds. While he claims to want to be out on his own, all of his actions point towards total dependence on us. I WILL NOT LET THIS HAPPEN. One way or another, difficult child 1 WILL move out of my house!!!
easy child is going through her own issues. Even though she is still a easy child, she is a "typical teen." She has morphed into a person I hardly recognize most of the time... At least this will pass, BUT not soon enough for me.
Financially, husband and I are struggling as so many others are. This just adds to all of the above stress.
And, I've gained four pounds!!! To my credit, I still eat healthy. I make sure I eat lots of fruits and veggies, drink lots of water, etc... The problem is that no matter what I learn or know intellectually, I'm still an emotional eater. I don't know if I feel any better or not, but at least I've confessed. I AM AN EMOTIONAL EATER!!! I NEED TO STOP!!!
I'm hoping that by finally having the courage to post this morning, I'll get back on track. I know I can't hide behind the excuse that I can't run, but honestly, it is extremely difficult for me to change the one coping mechanism that always kept me on track.
So, for me, it is just the same old pattern rearing it's ugly head again. I'm not sure what is going to take for me to change it. I just know that I need to get a handle on this emotional eating thing before I outgrow my clothes.
I honestly don't know why I'm unable to change this pattern. WFEN