Oh this might sound terrible to some, but I cannot wait till the 12th. My difficult child's ticket is purchased for that day. I don't know if I can hold on that long. Things are rough. She's back at home for these 12 days. The neighbor lady threw her out. She broke into my house instead of knocking on the door. I think part of me might miss her but I am not so sure, if she keeps the mouth up, i think it will be real hard to be anything other than relieved. I am almost fearful that they may want to send her home. Do i skip town and go live in a tiny house in the mountains somewhere, to not be located until she's 18. Or do I just refuse her and back to care. So many things running thru my mind. At the first sign of any irritablity in my voice, she starts screaming, I am trying to get along with you. You are not trying you are being rude. Um she just got done cursing me out for 45 minutes, but that doesnt qualify as rude, she only did that because I made her. Please send me some strength and good thoughts if you can, I am so frazzled with this. i am not taking her to the airport, I am trying to get her older sister can take her. I think I can manage a quick hug and I love you and then close the door and do a great big happy dance. omg, even saying it sounds terrible, but it's really how I feel at this point. Sick of her abuse.