mom looks right now - it scares me. wm has been telling husband this every day this week now. "She looks like she's going to die or something". He asked me yesterday if was I going to look better on the day after Christmas when we open gifts together. "I don't like how you look anymore". Foster mum pulled wm off the phone at that point. My health situation has be discussed in therapy with both of the tweedles. The changes have been explained to them as best they can understand given their age & such. wm, doesn't see me on a real regular basis as does kt, however we talk on the phone. I expect that therapist will want more appts together to help wm get more acclimated to what is going on with me. wm finally shared with husband that he doesn't want to see me this way anymore. He'd rather I don't visit. I have to say, I'm not real excited over the changes in my body - my looks over the last 6 months. The prednisone has raised havoc with me, my weight. This syndrome has done a number on my ability to walk & talk - there is facial drooping, scarring from shingles, one eye that won't stay open, I have very little hair left & I'm moon faced, Heck, I hardly look at myself in the mirror anymore. However, to refuse a visit because of the changes in my body didn't go over well with me. In fact, it put me in an awful mood - made me feel like a leper. I didn't hear husband's response as I left the room in tears. I've spent the majority of the night painting - needed something therapeutic to do with myself. I appreciate the ear this morning - just needed to get this out of my system.