hi
ok i needed to vent to get rid of this today. difficult child is so needy today. we just got home late yesterday afternoon did food shopping cleaned house didnt'g stop till late last night.
i needed today to relax take a deep breath not move heaven adn earth today.
yet difficult child's bouncing and has been since 9 a.m. this morning i'm really tired physically and mentally not feeling great having eaten take out hotel food junk for four days.
i soo needed today to rest it's just not fair sometimes i'm expected to just keep on going regardless. she wants to go out on bike, kids have no clean clothes which requires trip to laundromat and all i wanna do is lay on couch in pajamas cook a nice dinner and relax for a change.
yet i feel guilty to take this time when difficult child's are home. its look at this mom look at taht i can't walk out of a room and into the next without her saying where are you going what are you diong what are we doing now can you take me out??
oh man sometimes i'Tourette's Syndrome a bit much it really is. it's frustrating to not be able to get the mental break you need at times. i kno wi shouldn't complain but sheesh
then i think well tonight i will have down time. no i wont' puttin gher to bed on sundays is a freak show plain and simple the anxiety she experienced worry about school next day crying it's endless. i always fear bedtime now i dont know if it'll work if she'll be up till 5 a.m. in bed with us
ugh need a breather was giong to go back to office tmrw now i find myself debating that as well but i'm running out of money and charged so much on boyfriend's card and i have to make money to pay it off. just if i get her in school tmrw i'll have sometime without her and to relax. clearly its' not going to happen today.
she's like a toy with supercharged batteries without the medications.
ok thanks for letting me ramble relentlessly
ok i needed to vent to get rid of this today. difficult child is so needy today. we just got home late yesterday afternoon did food shopping cleaned house didnt'g stop till late last night.
i needed today to relax take a deep breath not move heaven adn earth today.
yet difficult child's bouncing and has been since 9 a.m. this morning i'm really tired physically and mentally not feeling great having eaten take out hotel food junk for four days.
i soo needed today to rest it's just not fair sometimes i'm expected to just keep on going regardless. she wants to go out on bike, kids have no clean clothes which requires trip to laundromat and all i wanna do is lay on couch in pajamas cook a nice dinner and relax for a change.
yet i feel guilty to take this time when difficult child's are home. its look at this mom look at taht i can't walk out of a room and into the next without her saying where are you going what are you diong what are we doing now can you take me out??
oh man sometimes i'Tourette's Syndrome a bit much it really is. it's frustrating to not be able to get the mental break you need at times. i kno wi shouldn't complain but sheesh
then i think well tonight i will have down time. no i wont' puttin gher to bed on sundays is a freak show plain and simple the anxiety she experienced worry about school next day crying it's endless. i always fear bedtime now i dont know if it'll work if she'll be up till 5 a.m. in bed with us
ugh need a breather was giong to go back to office tmrw now i find myself debating that as well but i'm running out of money and charged so much on boyfriend's card and i have to make money to pay it off. just if i get her in school tmrw i'll have sometime without her and to relax. clearly its' not going to happen today.
she's like a toy with supercharged batteries without the medications.
ok thanks for letting me ramble relentlessly
