Im a glutton for punishment. I became a memeber of this site a few days ago, looking for some relief. I was feeling pretty down, utterly wiped out and depressed. So I got what I was looking for. I have been feeling pretty good for the past few days now. (I really believe - due to this site!!) So now what to I do with the guilt? I feel bad for feeling good!!!! If I catch myself laughing or enjoying a moment here and there, I remind myself that my daughter is suffering and I have no business being happy for any amount of time. UGHHH. I hate that. I know logically I deserve to have some peace. I am a good mom and have done so much for my difficult child. She is in an Residential Treatment Center (RTC)., she is safe and now is the time I should take advantage of the peace I have in my household. So why cant I?????? I dont think I know how to not worry, I dont know how to be stress free anymore. Its like something isn't right if something is right. Am I making any sense at all? HELP!!!!!