Steely
Active Member
So I have been so hyper the last 2 days I think I scared difficult child.
Usually I am pretty calm, in check, erring on the more skeptical and logical side of life - however the last 2 days I have been hyper, giggly, and silly.
Last night I was sitting in a meeting at 10:00 at night (I know, seriously! 10 at night?) "learning" about a product in our store, and I suddenly got this distinct feeling that H. was right there with me. All these things that she might have said about the guy giving the lecture started surfacing, and I almost busted out laughing. (H. and I always had the most giggliest, silliest, sense of laughter and life - she made me laugh more than anyone, ever). Then I got home at midnight and I was telling difficult child about this random and weird display of merchandise that someone put up in our store - and I could not stop laughing. He just looked at me - and in his difficult child way (and thousands of dollars of therapy expertise) told me I was sublimating my grief. What?????? I cracked up even more.
Anyway - seriously - I know I am tired - but I am just wondering if any of you have had this happen where your grief turns to silliness. I just feel weird - but not in bad way. More as if I am in this childlike regressed phase where everything anyone says is funny. Plus, I have to add, I am much more energetic and charged. Granted I have not had much sleep, or been eating normally, but what if I have become manic? Could that have happened? Maybe I am just tired - and sad - and my emotions have just done a 180 and become hyperactivity and silliness.
You guys are great.
Usually I am pretty calm, in check, erring on the more skeptical and logical side of life - however the last 2 days I have been hyper, giggly, and silly.
Last night I was sitting in a meeting at 10:00 at night (I know, seriously! 10 at night?) "learning" about a product in our store, and I suddenly got this distinct feeling that H. was right there with me. All these things that she might have said about the guy giving the lecture started surfacing, and I almost busted out laughing. (H. and I always had the most giggliest, silliest, sense of laughter and life - she made me laugh more than anyone, ever). Then I got home at midnight and I was telling difficult child about this random and weird display of merchandise that someone put up in our store - and I could not stop laughing. He just looked at me - and in his difficult child way (and thousands of dollars of therapy expertise) told me I was sublimating my grief. What?????? I cracked up even more.
Anyway - seriously - I know I am tired - but I am just wondering if any of you have had this happen where your grief turns to silliness. I just feel weird - but not in bad way. More as if I am in this childlike regressed phase where everything anyone says is funny. Plus, I have to add, I am much more energetic and charged. Granted I have not had much sleep, or been eating normally, but what if I have become manic? Could that have happened? Maybe I am just tired - and sad - and my emotions have just done a 180 and become hyperactivity and silliness.
You guys are great.