Stella Johnson
Active Member
Since I got the RSD diagnosis I have been doing research. The more I read the more scared I am. Many people can't work any more after a while especially if it spreads.
I can't believe what a mess I am. I don't think I was this depressed even when difficult child was going through her worst times when she was younger.
I can't do anything I could before. Never realized how much I used my left hand. My pinky finger is still curled and won't extend. Still no feeling in the ring finger, and constant pain all the time in my entire hand and wrist.
The medications help take the edge off but pain is always there. I'm still working part time at work for another 2 weeks. I wanted to try full time next week but it is impossible. No way I could handle it that long. My hand is killing me by the time I leave work at noon already.
I found several message boards for people with RSD. Seems most of them are on SSI now and can't work. I don't ever want to be on SSI. I'm scared to death. I couldn't even make my house pmt on what SSI pays. Not to mention my difficult child has to have health insurance. I'm not good at staying home. I get depressed. I need to work. I need to be out of the house but at the same time I hurt too much to do anything.
My hand is so weak I can't even open my own prescription bottles. I can't hold a soda with my left hand. The coldness sends shocks from my hand to my shoulder.
I called my attorney last week. He gave me a malpractice attorney's number. The malpractice attorney said I definitely have a case but because it is malpractice they are hard cases because of the new rules. Remember when they passed all the new laws for getting rid of "Frivolous lawsuits"? Well, all they did was help the doctors almost never have to pay for their mistakes. It takes an act of congress to even file a suit. I'm going to see him this week.
I'm scared that if I don't win, I won't have enough money to support us if I am unable to work later on. I'll lose everything because of this.
Anyway, thanks for listening.
steph
I can't believe what a mess I am. I don't think I was this depressed even when difficult child was going through her worst times when she was younger.
I can't do anything I could before. Never realized how much I used my left hand. My pinky finger is still curled and won't extend. Still no feeling in the ring finger, and constant pain all the time in my entire hand and wrist.
The medications help take the edge off but pain is always there. I'm still working part time at work for another 2 weeks. I wanted to try full time next week but it is impossible. No way I could handle it that long. My hand is killing me by the time I leave work at noon already.
I found several message boards for people with RSD. Seems most of them are on SSI now and can't work. I don't ever want to be on SSI. I'm scared to death. I couldn't even make my house pmt on what SSI pays. Not to mention my difficult child has to have health insurance. I'm not good at staying home. I get depressed. I need to work. I need to be out of the house but at the same time I hurt too much to do anything.
My hand is so weak I can't even open my own prescription bottles. I can't hold a soda with my left hand. The coldness sends shocks from my hand to my shoulder.
I called my attorney last week. He gave me a malpractice attorney's number. The malpractice attorney said I definitely have a case but because it is malpractice they are hard cases because of the new rules. Remember when they passed all the new laws for getting rid of "Frivolous lawsuits"? Well, all they did was help the doctors almost never have to pay for their mistakes. It takes an act of congress to even file a suit. I'm going to see him this week.
I'm scared that if I don't win, I won't have enough money to support us if I am unable to work later on. I'll lose everything because of this.
Anyway, thanks for listening.
steph