I am so sorry for scaring everyone but things have been really difficult around here. First off my poor computer died and I had to send it in to have it revived. Thankfully I bought the warranty! Square Trade rocks. Secondly, I have been really sick and hurting since the accident and not much is helping. I have also developed severe anxiety when it comes to driving anywhere especially if any 18 wheelers happen to be around. The insurance company still hasnt settled anything even for my vehicle which means we are driving around in a wrecked little Toyota pickup. The window only rolls down 4 inches and the door opens just enough for me to slide in. Tony beat the fender wells away from the tires so they dont rub. It's just a mess. I need money to buy another car. Now onto more things to just stress me out. Last week the cops went over to my trailer that we are renting to Billy and difficult child. Evidently they were only there to serve some sort of paper from a neighbor who is convinced difficult child stole a truck (he didnt) but difficult child thought they were there about a warrant he has had out for over 3 years now and he took off out of the house leaving the Mouse (3 year old granddaughter) in the house by herself. What an idiot! So as you can imagine not only were the cops there, they called CPS. Evidently before difficult child bailed out of the house he called Billy and Mouse's mother but neither of them could get there. From what I understand, the mom got there about half an hour after they arrived which is dumb because she was about 400 yards up the road. Anyway, the cps worker told her my trailer wasnt fit for anyone to live in and the baby wouldnt spend another night there over his dead body even if he had to burn the place down. Now I am very ticked off that anyone from CPS threatened to burn my place down. That is a threat that I want investigated and if they really said it, they should be fired. I have a feeling the reason they said the child couldnt live there is they may have found drug items out like pipes or bongs. I dont know because I havent been over there in well over a month or more. Well anyway, they got ahold of difficult child and told him he needed to turn himself in on Thursday. WTH? He has jumped bail at least 5 times but yet they continue to let him out! I was so sure that he was finally going to be going to the jail to serve his time. Oh no. They gave him another bond and Mandy bailed him out! The child is in foster care but oh heck, she had to bail difficult child out! Does that make any sense to anyone? And now Tony is mad at me because evidently I am the last person to know this and when I called him all in astonishment that such a thing could happen he was like...so why are you upset, dont you want difficult child to spend Xmas with his children? Well actually no I dont. He has put us in the position that we could possibly not be able to see our grandchildren. When CPS ran us through the system to see if we could take the baby we came up as unfit parents! Uhhh...only because we had an unfit child! I am so livid I cant see straight. The one good thing is Jamie agrees with me. I have had it. I wish I had only parented dogs. Now we have to put our two months notice in on this place and go back home. Billy is of the mindset that he can go back to paying $150 a month which is so not going to fly. I dont even want him there. Tony wants to turn my trailer into a duplex and let Billy rent the other part. I want to get rid of the double wide and get a tiny two bedroom single wide. Heck I would be satisfied with a travel trailer. I DONT WANT KIDS LIVING WITH ME ANYMORE!!!!! How much plainer can I get with that?