difficult child has not gone to school in a week now (see SpEd Forum & Risperdal thread here) and has been staying home alone instead. When I got home today, he was the worst I've ever seen him. Crying non-stop then major ANGER. After about 1/2 hour, he finally blurted out what has been REALLY bothering him. Here's the long part. My Ex took off before my boys were born. They have met him a couple times but have had no contact (or child support) in over 6 years. He WANTS A DAD! Put that together with having 3 Big Brothers (through that program) vanish without a word to difficult child. Here one day, moved out of state the next. Then my sister, his favorite aunt, walked out on her family, literally, over 2 years ago. Then occupational therapist he finally "let in" this year, took another job somewhere else. Can anyone say "ABANDONMENT ISSUES"? It turns out that difficult child has been worrying about me leaving him because of the behavior that was caused by the Risperdal that has been getting him sent home from school most every day for the last 2 months. He has had nightmares the last few nights that I did leave him. That explains why he's been sleeping with easy child/difficult child lately. It took a lot of talking, crying, and hugging before he half believed me. Like I told him, no matter how bad he acts, I am NEVER going to leave him. I feel sorry for the little (4ft 4in and 70lbs at almost 13) guy. At least now I have a clue about what's going through that head of his.