i know we all deal with-way too much and cope thru it. Yet i have to be honest as i stood in my backyard just 8 mos. ago smiling and happy on my wedding day i truly had no idea what was in store for me. its been so much this year between him, easy child running away and blowing and losing it, difficult child getting so sick two hospitals in diff states. than my mother disowning me 2 weeks ago via email in facebook, my crazy father passing away and no one telling me. it's been the year of all climactic situations that are coming to a head, one by one. maybe i'll look back in two years and say boy it was a hard year yet it's so good it all happened look at my life now!
i haven't been able to cry for two weeks, lol sounds funny yet i haven't. been numb strong somewhat happy. than this morning really early after i only slept 4 hours and had to drive easy child to school i returned laid in bed to try and close my eyes and the tears finally came. it was a good release. now i'm back to numb again though lol and just shaking my head.
i truly hope next year at this time my life's different better happier easy child graduated difficult child still improving. i think i'm so afraid to stimy the work i've progress i've made with her by ending this marriage creating a huge shift in her ilfe. yet being with someone like this is so unhealthy. wedding pics are all over the house we just ordered them 3 weeks ago, their hanging in living room all over the place. its all just soo grose yuck....... and now difficult child acclimating to life again a little bit i'm stuck here regardless where my future brings me with this. i'm stuck ina town with him and his ex. yuck again
i haven't been able to cry for two weeks, lol sounds funny yet i haven't. been numb strong somewhat happy. than this morning really early after i only slept 4 hours and had to drive easy child to school i returned laid in bed to try and close my eyes and the tears finally came. it was a good release. now i'm back to numb again though lol and just shaking my head.
i truly hope next year at this time my life's different better happier easy child graduated difficult child still improving. i think i'm so afraid to stimy the work i've progress i've made with her by ending this marriage creating a huge shift in her ilfe. yet being with someone like this is so unhealthy. wedding pics are all over the house we just ordered them 3 weeks ago, their hanging in living room all over the place. its all just soo grose yuck....... and now difficult child acclimating to life again a little bit i'm stuck here regardless where my future brings me with this. i'm stuck ina town with him and his ex. yuck again