My feelings are a tangled mess at this point , so bare with my ramblings please... My difficult child goes to ct this coming thurs. I feel relief,fear,guilt,+. I have dealt with enough emotions with him to know when I am on the edge. This past week I have thrown myself into my work and tried to make it through. He came home sick 2 nights ago~wanted no intervention from me. He took nyquil and slept 2 days. Last night I brought home dinner, he sat down to eat and one of his difficult child buddies called~ he said I will eat this later and left.(ugh!) He is supposed to start a job at mcdonalds tomorrow. He said he will be home today. I guess he plans for us to get him to work~I am angry at that. He had over a mth since the judge told him to get a job. He has spent the entire time running between girlfriends and hanging out with difficult child buddies. He shows up at home to wash clothes about once a week, he will eat and be gone another week. Now, it is 5 days before court and he gets a job and is expecting us to change our schedules to get him there. I know it sounds cold, but he waited till the last minute and got what was easy for him without asking us a thing. He just expects us (ME) to change everything to suit him because he has shown back up here. This has made husband and I be at a great distance with each other. I have found myself(AGAIN) taking up for difficult child and being VERY angry at husband for the way he ignores difficult child. He just won't even talk to him. I know this too will pass, I really needed to share. There is so much inbetween the lines I posted I just can't even begin to get it all out.