Thank you nvts...i just got home with "sam" from her doctor appointment, shes up to 150mg of zolof now, lol, i probebly misspelled that, God im so mentally and emotionally tired...i know i should be used to needing a key for the locks in order to make dinner. can't wait till i can make dinner without a key. as far as getting frustrated, i have developed somehow of being calm pretty much all the time, it's amazing what a person can get used to after so long...i left her box of paperwork in the car, or i would write all "sam's" diagnosis or traits. its horrifying when from such a young age (3-4) a mom has to witness some of the most horrific things you could imagine and here it is over 10 years later and all you have is the memories. wasn't it supposed to be playing dress-up, slumber parties, school events? not life and death situations and me being on a crusade to save the world from my daughter. ive spent so many times just telling the facts of the reality of "sam" and her successfully manipulating people to her will, her putting all the blame on me, then after "sam" has had her way with people, there left with 'night terrors' there lives are traumatized and the only thing i can say is "I tried to warn you....." hopefully i'll have time tomorrow to write as much of "stephen king novel" life for the last 10 years. right now i can't shes home and i have to stay vigilant. the house is secure as it possible can, but ....... well "sam" has managed to figure out ways...i even recently had to put tape over the grout on the tile flower because she was getting to it...i mean COME ON! are you kidding..... ooh i can put the some of your questions at easy, "sam" is heavily into mutilation and she has threatened the lives of 4 people, possible 2 attempted murders. a pillow with her younger brother and a knife with the youngest of her step mom's kids. i literally am terrified of my own daughter, but threw watching her, she feeds off fear, and i refuse to show her how afraid i am. i'm hoping by letting as many authority figures know about who or what "sam" is hopefully they will be able to stop her..i can't help but feel responsible for the pain my daughter will cause on the world when she's an adult, which is only 3 years away, thats why i'm none stop in getting her help, or at least a long paper trail...so if something does happen...hope it wont be that bad...
oh 1 more thing, tuesday they were doing dissecting in her science class, and after talking with her science teacher, i just kept her home..i dont want the lust for mutilation and blood letting that she already has to go into hurting animals.. thats the only thing thats left as far as "sam" fitting the (antisocial disorder) when she's 18...or better known as the psychopath... i guess its fullish of me to go as far as i can to stop her, but i feel it's my sole responsibility