I'm somewhere between needing to vent and needing a good cry.
husband made a comment last night that I am the LAST person he would talk to about his Mom or his kids (the difficult children) because I have to have an opinion about everything.
In the last 12 months every single bill I have has gone up, some way, way up~! We used to have enough for food and gas after we paid the bills. Now we have about $2 left before food and gas. And of course, there is no O/T during the summer.
So, it's July, it's easy child's 20th b-day, and once again, he will get nothing from us for his B-day. He's totally cool about it. His words, "What can you get someone, who doesn't want anything. Just give me a hug and I'm happy"... and this is the kid that mother in law say "Gets everything he wants, while She (me) refuses to get or do anything for the difficult children".... And husband's world would end if we didn't get the difficult child's something for their B-days! His excuse, easy child understands where the difficult child's won't understand. That is such BS!
Because of the tight budget, I work a second job on Sat nights/ Sun Mornings. So, I work 7 days a week. My house is gross. husband thinks it's fine because the dishes are done and it's picked up (I do those as soon as I get home everyday).... husband doesn't see the carpet that needs to be vacuumed. With 3 big hairy dogs....it's bad. It's a light off-white carpet, 2 of the 3 dogs are black-haired dogs. You can run your hand across the carpet and pick up a hand full of dog hair. There are dog-hair dust bunnies running through the kitchen, bathrooms and entry way.
I do get to take a couple of days off, so that we can take a 10 hour drive to see an Uncle of husband's that he hasn't seen in 20 years, we stay one day, then drive the 10 hours back, and then off to work I go.
And add to that, 3 1/2 weeks of bronchitis that just will not let up even a little.