timer lady
Queen of Hearts
Thank you all....husband & I did have a very loving AND complex marriage. For the most part he was a functional alcoholic. He worked until the day he went into the hospital ~ still supporting his family while refusing to be an active part of his family. I never understood this ~ possibly never will. The man was mensa smart with no common sense.
Our 2 long weekends spent in northern WI in beautiful cabins were some of the most tender/loving times in our marriage. I will always have the memories of those times.
Most likely, kt's upcoming stint in Residential Treatment Center (RTC) is for me more than for her. She definitely needs stabalization; as psychiatrist said, I need time alone to grieve with-o the constant tweedle chaos. It's a "win/win" if I think about it.
My niece is coming up this weekend to check in with me & discuss the situation; my expectations ~ her expectations. AND most important according to K, a visit with her favorite aunt. I loved being called the favorite ~ flaunt it about to my sisters & SILs.
The sooner a bed is found for kt the freer I will feel to grieve safely with-o the constant tweedle demands. I can concentrate on building my physical strength/endurance with in home help & my emotional needs thru counseling. I do take a larger than normal dose of Cymbalta. Can't say it's helping at this time. I'm not sure anything would help at this time.
I need to meet with the neuropsychologist that did my evaluation sometime next week ~ just to have a clue on where I stand cognitively.
I'm stuck here with my biggest support system 325 miles away because of the bottomed out housing market & more importantly, the lack of services in the state which my family lives. There is nothing, nothing there. I need to stay here at least until the tweedles hit 19 or graduate high school.
Our 2 long weekends spent in northern WI in beautiful cabins were some of the most tender/loving times in our marriage. I will always have the memories of those times.
Most likely, kt's upcoming stint in Residential Treatment Center (RTC) is for me more than for her. She definitely needs stabalization; as psychiatrist said, I need time alone to grieve with-o the constant tweedle chaos. It's a "win/win" if I think about it.
My niece is coming up this weekend to check in with me & discuss the situation; my expectations ~ her expectations. AND most important according to K, a visit with her favorite aunt. I loved being called the favorite ~ flaunt it about to my sisters & SILs.
The sooner a bed is found for kt the freer I will feel to grieve safely with-o the constant tweedle demands. I can concentrate on building my physical strength/endurance with in home help & my emotional needs thru counseling. I do take a larger than normal dose of Cymbalta. Can't say it's helping at this time. I'm not sure anything would help at this time.
I need to meet with the neuropsychologist that did my evaluation sometime next week ~ just to have a clue on where I stand cognitively.
I'm stuck here with my biggest support system 325 miles away because of the bottomed out housing market & more importantly, the lack of services in the state which my family lives. There is nothing, nothing there. I need to stay here at least until the tweedles hit 19 or graduate high school.