SWOT, I am sorry for your loss. Losing parents is so hard. Time really does help, and you will see as time goes by the pain will recede, the grief will become less sharp, and in the end you will remember him with a smile when something jogs your memory.
Although I hardly ever write these days, I come here to look every day. I shall miss you. I wish you luck with leaving the Board -- I found I couldn't leave it, it has become an integral part of my life and I feel so attached to it, even though I am now sooooo old and most of the postings are no longer relevant to where I am in my life.
Good luck, and sending you love from Esther