toughlovin
Well-Known Member
Hi all,
Well I kind of just took a break from the forum... various reasons but mostly just trying to avoid thinking about things although that did not really work. Anyway I think about all of you and thought I should check back in.
I am completely and thoroughly frustrated and trying not to let it all get to me too much... but it is anyways.
I think the last time I wrote was in mid August when my son was sent back to jail after being in a psychiatric unit for 2 weeks for being suicidal. He is in jail basically because he has no other place to go until drug court can find a bed for him in a dual diagnosis program.
The problem is they cant seem to find him a bed... part of this is my sons fault because he has burned a lot of bridges. Part of it is just the screwed up system and the fact that there are way more people needing treatment than beds.
A couple of weeks ago I woke up in the middle of the night thinking that I should just request that he come home. I have no idea if they would let him come home or not but i just feel this strong mommy need to save/rescue him again!! I guess it was lucky that when I brought it up with my husband he said he was really uncomfortable with that. I am usually the stronger clearer one but not that time. So anyway we did not do that. Probably a very good thing because I do think it would probably be a disaster.
In some ways I dont think being in jail has been a bad thing, it certainly has got him more willing to do whatever it takes. Not sure how much he recognizes his drug problem but he does admit that he uses to deal with what goes on in his head.
And finally (after several weeks of difficulty) he is on medications properly and has been for a few weeks now. I can definitely see a difference. So between being on medications and being sober he seems to be thinking more clearly and is actually doing ok.
So like I said I dont think it is all bed.... but I dont think at this point any more time in jail... in the holding area because he has not been sentanced so there is nothing positive in terms of programs... is helpful.
And the fact they cant find him a bed is just driving me nuts.... and it makes it all very hard.
On top of all that my dad, who is 96 is in the process of dying. He is across the country but I did fly out and see him a few weeks ago. He has had a good life and it is the natural order of things but it is one more stressor.
The good news is that my daughter is having a great time her freshman year and is coming home this weekend for the first time which I am reallylooking forward to.
Love you all.... and I will try to keep up better.
TL
Well I kind of just took a break from the forum... various reasons but mostly just trying to avoid thinking about things although that did not really work. Anyway I think about all of you and thought I should check back in.
I am completely and thoroughly frustrated and trying not to let it all get to me too much... but it is anyways.
I think the last time I wrote was in mid August when my son was sent back to jail after being in a psychiatric unit for 2 weeks for being suicidal. He is in jail basically because he has no other place to go until drug court can find a bed for him in a dual diagnosis program.
The problem is they cant seem to find him a bed... part of this is my sons fault because he has burned a lot of bridges. Part of it is just the screwed up system and the fact that there are way more people needing treatment than beds.
A couple of weeks ago I woke up in the middle of the night thinking that I should just request that he come home. I have no idea if they would let him come home or not but i just feel this strong mommy need to save/rescue him again!! I guess it was lucky that when I brought it up with my husband he said he was really uncomfortable with that. I am usually the stronger clearer one but not that time. So anyway we did not do that. Probably a very good thing because I do think it would probably be a disaster.
In some ways I dont think being in jail has been a bad thing, it certainly has got him more willing to do whatever it takes. Not sure how much he recognizes his drug problem but he does admit that he uses to deal with what goes on in his head.
And finally (after several weeks of difficulty) he is on medications properly and has been for a few weeks now. I can definitely see a difference. So between being on medications and being sober he seems to be thinking more clearly and is actually doing ok.
So like I said I dont think it is all bed.... but I dont think at this point any more time in jail... in the holding area because he has not been sentanced so there is nothing positive in terms of programs... is helpful.
And the fact they cant find him a bed is just driving me nuts.... and it makes it all very hard.
On top of all that my dad, who is 96 is in the process of dying. He is across the country but I did fly out and see him a few weeks ago. He has had a good life and it is the natural order of things but it is one more stressor.
The good news is that my daughter is having a great time her freshman year and is coming home this weekend for the first time which I am reallylooking forward to.
Love you all.... and I will try to keep up better.
TL