Janet, I'm so sorry to hear how he has been to you, but it true when they say you hurt the one you love the most. I go thru that with my oldes. I wish they could both wake up and see what is becoming of their lives. One day they will wake up and be old men and have had no life, nothing to laugh about when they gather and share stories, no happy moments. Why cant they see this???? I always ask myself this every day, what is wrong with this child of mine, can't he see life is short??? But I did see my therapist today and he told me that addiction takes over their whole life and until they see this and realize that they have to take responsibility for their own life, their own actions nothing will ever change. Ant was doing so great I was so happy for you to see he was turning his life around and then bam! Right back to the start, but that is what an addicted life is, once an addict always an addict, they have to be willing to fight the addiction the rest of their lives.
I will always keep you in my prayers, you are very strong.
Bette