well S2BX is in jail, his sister has been calling me and filling me in on how bad a shape he is in. He had attempted to take his own life prior to going to court which resulted in jail time. difficult child I is in detention shelter and called me last night browbeating me about needing this and that and why haven't I gotten it to him yet? I picture his father sitting in jail in the suit and dress shoes he wore to court a month ago and I cry. Where is the humility difficult child I should have, the remorse? Where is the love and perserverence S2BX should strive for, for his kids, so he could get his life together, not try to end it! And then, difficult child II spouts off how he hates me to his in home today. Why? Simply because he does not want me in his life telling him what to do and controlling him. I am so weary of everything and everyone in my life! I feel very blah about everything and everyone emotionally. sorry rambling once again, it's just been a sucky week.