A violet who needs direction

[Steely]

So, I am not sure if any of you have taken the Life Colors Quiz, but it is definitely insightful. I took mine awhile back, and I am a violet - with blue/green. Blue is a nurturer/caregiver, green is someone who is career & money motivated ~ and a violet is someone who wants to save the world. Since I can remember, I have wanted to make an impact on someone, or something. Violet is my primary color, thus my need to "save difficult child". I bet a lot of us on the board are violets, because we have all united as warrior moms for our difficult children.

Today my boss/friend, resigned. Beside feeling amazingly sad that she was going to leave po-dunk AZ - I was also told that if I wanted to apply for her job I would have to take on all of the responsibility of her job for 3 months, without any guarantees of getting the job when it posts available in the Spring. And - if I choose not to take on the responsibility of her job - than I will not be considered as an eligible candidate in the Spring. It is bribery, coercion, manipulation - and yet - I want to move forward and advance - because that is the green in me.

Green is all I have ever done to survive as a single mom. But maybe I want to finally be a violet. Maybe it is time to save the world. I don't know. But even violets need to have a means to an end. If I don't take on all of this responsibility than I know that they will find a way to eliminate my job - I have seen it happen with this company over and over again.

I am really torn. This town only has 4K people in it, and the "careers" can be counted on one hand. If I want to stay in this town, than I will have to take on this responsibility.

I LOVE it in this town/region of AZ. It is so beautiful and perfect for me. Yet, I do not want to stress myself out over a job I may never get. I cannot be that green. The corporation that I work for is horrible to their employees. HORRIBLE. I will not be able to withstand how they handle things. I know that much about me. I also know that I just want peace in my life. I do not want corporate stress, and politics, nor do I want to participate in the whole corporate dog and pony show. What I want to do is TRULY help people and bring light into their life.

Advice?

 

[everywoman]

You have been moving in the right direction since your decision to move, and we know that change starts within. Will the added responsibilities include additional pay? As another blue/green/violet, I can tell you that I frequently take on additional responsibilities at work, not because they come with a pay increase, because I like to challenge myself. In order to not grow stale, in order to remain outside of the box I see so many stuff themselves into, I look toward challenges as a means of growth. Success or failure are byproducts of that challenge. What I am really looking for is a chance to grow, change, move forward. Will this offer you that chance? Not so much in the company, but in yourself? I have to step outside the politics and backstabbing in education (and trust me it is there) and ask myself if I am moving in the direction I want to move in. I do the things I do because I want to---not because I have to.

 

[Hound dog]

Hmmmm. I've never hear of this quiz thing.

But I'd go ahead and do it if it were me. Especially if you'll get a pay boost while you're doing it. Even if you don't get the job at the end.....you've got that experience to stick on a resume......in my opinion that's always a good thing.

Any way you could do it and have the attitude if it works great, if not, that's ok too??

 

[timer lady]

Must have missed the quiz .... be that as it may, I say go for it if you love the area.

I've lived in large cities for the last 25 plus years & I have to say that I'd really love to move back out in the country. Geez, Steeley maybe I'll head down your way.

Whatever your decision, I wish you all the luck in the world. (by the way I hate corporate junk like this ~ it truly hoovers.)

 

[Steely]

No, there is not a pay increase unless I get the job. I guess the bottom line is that I do not want the added stress of this huge new responsibility - and yet if I don't take it - I think my job will be eliminated. I am being shoved into a situation I don't want, need, or desire - and I don't see a way out.