Steely
Active Member
So, I am not sure if any of you have taken the Life Colors Quiz, but it is definitely insightful. I took mine awhile back, and I am a violet - with blue/green. Blue is a nurturer/caregiver, green is someone who is career & money motivated ~ and a violet is someone who wants to save the world. Since I can remember, I have wanted to make an impact on someone, or something. Violet is my primary color, thus my need to "save difficult child". I bet a lot of us on the board are violets, because we have all united as warrior moms for our difficult children.
Today my boss/friend, resigned. Beside feeling amazingly sad that she was going to leave po-dunk AZ - I was also told that if I wanted to apply for her job I would have to take on all of the responsibility of her job for 3 months, without any guarantees of getting the job when it posts available in the Spring. And - if I choose not to take on the responsibility of her job - than I will not be considered as an eligible candidate in the Spring. It is bribery, coercion, manipulation - and yet - I want to move forward and advance - because that is the green in me.
Green is all I have ever done to survive as a single mom. But maybe I want to finally be a violet. Maybe it is time to save the world. I don't know. But even violets need to have a means to an end. If I don't take on all of this responsibility than I know that they will find a way to eliminate my job - I have seen it happen with this company over and over again.
I am really torn. This town only has 4K people in it, and the "careers" can be counted on one hand. If I want to stay in this town, than I will have to take on this responsibility.
I LOVE it in this town/region of AZ. It is so beautiful and perfect for me. Yet, I do not want to stress myself out over a job I may never get. I cannot be that green. The corporation that I work for is horrible to their employees. HORRIBLE. I will not be able to withstand how they handle things. I know that much about me. I also know that I just want peace in my life. I do not want corporate stress, and politics, nor do I want to participate in the whole corporate dog and pony show. What I want to do is TRULY help people and bring light into their life.
Advice?
Today my boss/friend, resigned. Beside feeling amazingly sad that she was going to leave po-dunk AZ - I was also told that if I wanted to apply for her job I would have to take on all of the responsibility of her job for 3 months, without any guarantees of getting the job when it posts available in the Spring. And - if I choose not to take on the responsibility of her job - than I will not be considered as an eligible candidate in the Spring. It is bribery, coercion, manipulation - and yet - I want to move forward and advance - because that is the green in me.
Green is all I have ever done to survive as a single mom. But maybe I want to finally be a violet. Maybe it is time to save the world. I don't know. But even violets need to have a means to an end. If I don't take on all of this responsibility than I know that they will find a way to eliminate my job - I have seen it happen with this company over and over again.
I am really torn. This town only has 4K people in it, and the "careers" can be counted on one hand. If I want to stay in this town, than I will have to take on this responsibility.
I LOVE it in this town/region of AZ. It is so beautiful and perfect for me. Yet, I do not want to stress myself out over a job I may never get. I cannot be that green. The corporation that I work for is horrible to their employees. HORRIBLE. I will not be able to withstand how they handle things. I know that much about me. I also know that I just want peace in my life. I do not want corporate stress, and politics, nor do I want to participate in the whole corporate dog and pony show. What I want to do is TRULY help people and bring light into their life.
Advice?