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agee
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Sooooooo....we are still waiting for our neuropsychologist appointment and difficult child is still off the stims - for 2 1/2 weeks now.
In some ways things are good - in general his mood is much elevated - but he has days (like today) when he is 'wide-open' - will not stop talking, moving, dancing, making noise, etc. then whammo - hateful, hateful, hateful.
Hateful.
He was invited to a b-day party today, which was wonderful and surprising to me since I didn't think he had any friends and he spent all morning making noise, bugging me, dancing, instigating, etc.etc. then got to the party and wouldn't talk to anyone or participate in any games. He just hung on his brother (who is 10 and wasn't invited but was there because I had an emergency) and then, once I picked him up, called his brother and me names the entire 25 minute ride home. So foul. When we got home I said he needed to go to his room and he screamed and screamed at me, called me names, and glared at me so I grabbed him and marched him up there and locked the door.
Meanwhile I am furious! My heart is pounding and I'm so so so mad! I hate that he gets to me so badly. Hate it. Hate that I lose control and yell and manhandle him and have such awful thoughts.
And then, when room time is up I go up and he's all sunny and light. Not apologetic, but calm and happy and ready to play.
I really don't get it. He is so not-normal.
And reading this board has been helpful but it also scares the **** out of me because I read stories from people with older kids and I know what's ahead.
Carry on...
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In some ways things are good - in general his mood is much elevated - but he has days (like today) when he is 'wide-open' - will not stop talking, moving, dancing, making noise, etc. then whammo - hateful, hateful, hateful.
Hateful.
He was invited to a b-day party today, which was wonderful and surprising to me since I didn't think he had any friends and he spent all morning making noise, bugging me, dancing, instigating, etc.etc. then got to the party and wouldn't talk to anyone or participate in any games. He just hung on his brother (who is 10 and wasn't invited but was there because I had an emergency) and then, once I picked him up, called his brother and me names the entire 25 minute ride home. So foul. When we got home I said he needed to go to his room and he screamed and screamed at me, called me names, and glared at me so I grabbed him and marched him up there and locked the door.
Meanwhile I am furious! My heart is pounding and I'm so so so mad! I hate that he gets to me so badly. Hate it. Hate that I lose control and yell and manhandle him and have such awful thoughts.
And then, when room time is up I go up and he's all sunny and light. Not apologetic, but calm and happy and ready to play.
I really don't get it. He is so not-normal.
And reading this board has been helpful but it also scares the **** out of me because I read stories from people with older kids and I know what's ahead.
Carry on...
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