I haven't been on in a while, but have been very busy with a lot of issues that have come up with my daughter. She's stopped seeing the child psychologist she had been seeing because she was declared "cured" of her ODD. She's since started school, which made for interesting times. She was great at school, but at home she started turning into the devil child. I talked to the school and got a therapist for her to see there. All was going fairly well until summer vacation and she wasn't seeing that therapist for a couple months. Summer started off good, even on our mother/daughter trip but the drive back changed it all. We were in the middle of a tragic accident, but somehow managed to escape without even a scratch. I'm talking 18 vehicles, 3 tanker trucks, numerous flipped, sideswiped, crushed vehicles as well as a few that were pushed under the trailers of the tankers ... and fortunately I kicked into emergency mode and pounded on the hazards so the tanker racing up behind us knew there was trouble ahead. I was so glad that I'd remembered to bring the portable DVD player and that my truck has AC in it. I kept her occupied watching DVD's cranked as loud as possible through the truck stereo to drown out the screams of agony filtering in. I've since had her in therapy to deal with what she saw with that accident, and she's back to feeling safer in the truck again. Overall, she's been fairly good, but her bad moments have been getting a lot worse. She attempted to stab me with a steak knife during the summer, so I called the police for help. While we were waiting for them to show up, she started talking about wanting to slice her wrists and kill herself. Cops show up, lecture me about being a bad parent and telling me I shouldn't have been a parent since I can't control my 5 year old. I explained ODD and that she's got that, but that still didn't stop the lecture to me. My daughter was told by this cop that if I don't do something that she likes that she's more than welcome to call them back. They reported me to CPS, which I actually thanked them for. I called and talked to CPS and they said to me that it sounded as though my safety was in jeopardy, and to call and talk to the police. I told them I did, and what the outcome of that was. I actually begged them to put my daughter into a foster home for a few days just so I could get a break - they didn't. I did have CPS come out to my house to talk to me, and they gave me even more options with possible resources. CPS advised me that the police told them that I need to get rid of all sharp knives (and I'm a chef by trade). I've altered the kitchen so that I could put a door on it and padlock it shut, and I've made a box for every sharp knife in the house to fit in the pouch on the box of my truck. I'll shorten it down now. I'm waiting on a family guidance counselor to call me back to find out if I qualify for their help. The only thing that might be a problem with that is that my daughter is under 12 yrs old. If that doesn't work, I've been told how to get her in with mental health. I've got her seeing her therapist in the school again. It's been slow but the therapist in the school is finally starting to make a difference with my daughter again.