This week has been very hectic for me. I am living on coffee becuase I can't sleep. I am feeling very anxious about the next couple things ahead. First of all, we have an IEP for difficult child tomorrow. She is going downhill quite quickly at home, and I am amazed she seems to be keeping it together at school. Still, I am going to again request that she have an aide in the afternoon. She is losing some memory, and she hardly ever remembers what she has to do at school or what she has for homework. Half the time she forgets her materials. Sometimes she writes something down and then insists it is for something else. She is usually unable to write down her assignments on her own though. I never get notes from school on a regular basis, and frankly, I think they are letting her slide on by just because she is fairly high intellectually (meaning she gets concepts quickly, is a great reader, etc.). I have a feeling they are going to turn me down again, but at least it will be in file that I requested it. They were also supposed to get her a portable word processor device so she wouldn't have to write things down, but that hasn't happened yet. They just seem to make promises that they rarely keep unless it makes life eisier for them (not us or her). The second thing is the biopsy we have on Tuesday. It is not an extremely invasive procedure or anything, but I am just anxious about putting her through all this for nothing. I am also worried about how she will come out of anethesia. I am worried that she will be extremely difficult or upset or confused (it really tears me up to see her that way, especially around other people) I just feel so helpless. We had another meltdown at the doctor's again. This time when we went to see the therapist. He came out to the parking lot, and it was all we could do to get her out of the car. She wasn't violent or anything this time, just really upset and defiant. We finally got her in to meet the poor guy (it was my first time taking her to see him). The last thing that is heavily on my mind is her auditory/visual hallucinations. We have known for some time that she has these. They are what we call her "imaginary friends". When we first discovered that she saw and heard things that were not there, I freaked out (wouldn't you?), but after the psychologist explained that it was a result of her frontal lobe damage and that they seemed to be "happy hallucinations". Only during one period did they get negative (when she was on Lexapro). Well, we learned to live with them, and they are pretty under control. she only talks to them at home, and she really only makes faces and gestures toward them once in a while. Anyway, she started on a new mild anti-depressant called Trazodone to help her sleep. Since she started, they have gotten to be more of a presence in the household. She is talking to them much more and being more obvious about it. We increased the medication last night (still not sleeping well) after talking to the psychiatrist about the "friends" becoming more active. She didn't seem to alarmed and told me to just watch her more closely. I am really just afraid that she will be inappropriate at school and lose the few friends she has, or that they will get negative on her again and she will be afraid to say something. I am not sure if anti-depressants just have this effect on her. The psychiatrist assured me that the one she is taking is extremely mild and used often for sleep. We will see... Anyway, done with my vent. Any advice on the school or anything is always appreciated. Goodness, it feels good to get it out!!!!