It's another day when Jumper, who came home for my surgery and cheered me up as soon as I saw her (I was not expecting her) just drove back to college. That always depresses me, but I have been fighting a bit of depression all week. This is NOT major depression. It is the residual depression I get because my medications are maybe 90% successful, but can't completely keep my moods 100% stable. I know it's not because of surgery as I am doing so well that if I didn't have my drain hanging down my boob, I'd be doing jumping jacks. I am seriously neither tired nor very sore nor affected much by that other than feeling restless because I won't be working a while. I need to move back into this moment, as hubby is still home with me, and not think ahead to tomorrow when he will be at work and the kids will be where they go, but I did think about it as she drove off...and the thought of those endless hours are, well, depressing to me. Being alone and not busy always gets me a bit depressed. And although I can probably get the doctor to let me go back to work in two weeks, I'd rather take four weeks so that I can do some things I have no time for when I work, one being going to the Workforce Development to interview for a REAL job. Goodwill is just part of a four year program and while I have three years left, I'd feel better at a permanent job where I'm an employee, not a Program Participant who gets paid by the program rather than the company. That was my longwinded way of asking what you, who get depressed at times, do when you are feeling down? I do read, but I can't do that all the time. I work out, but that's impossible right now, post-surgery. I don't have a lot of friends so my social life is mostly at work. Right now I have tears in my eyes like I always do when Jumper leaves. There is something magical to me about Jumper. When I opened my eyes after surgery and saw her, I just lit up inside. She can do that to me. To feel a bit better I'm going to Skype Princess and Buddha Baby later, but BB usually doesn't last too long, although she's fun to Skype. I already talked to Sonic...him I see all the time. I also love warm bubblebaths with scented candles and classical music, but...not allowed to take a bath until the drain is out. I can't even get romantic with hubster right now...haha. Any suggestions? I am seriously about to start jogging while I hold my drain...it's not that big a deal...because working out is all I know. Yet I'll need calmer ways to perk up the next two weeks at least. Any suggestions, welcome. %*#@ drain!!!!!!!! I hope it comes out Tuesday, which is when I to back to the surgeon's offices.