hi so today was a complete 4th day at hospital for difficult child. this morning was a 9:30 group with-all the kids and parents that i was looking forward to, support groups etc. i couldnt' see difficult child because she didnt' eat her breakfast. she began at 8 a.m. and did not eat it until 12:30. 4 1/2 hours. i got to see her for ten minutes before she was than being dragged into lunch. i hugged her, gave my support and love. and left I return at 2 for 2 to 5 visiting hours. i couldn't see difficult child because she couldnt' complete her lunch. she began at 12:30 and she didn't get out until 3:30. I got an hour with her and we played a board game until nurse came in and said difficult child snack time! left again. i return at 4 thinking she'd be done. she wasnt' complete. had to wait. she came out, stomach in pain and growling and said it hurts. i said go to desk and tell nurse. she does and they say we can't give you pepto bismol without clearing with dr. difficult child returns confused. i get ten minutes with difficult child and have to leave again because now dinner is going to be starting. 1 hour for completion of a fruit ice for snack. i return at 7 for visiting hours. catn' wait to see her. bought her books, was going to read black beauty to her. we had a plan. i cant' see difficult child she is still in dining room she didn't finish her food. dinner began at 5:15. i left her a note on her bed. and left again. it is now 9:40 she is still in the dining room, crying with nurse to eat her food. so, all day long out of 17 hours awake 16 of them were spent trying to eat food. no visiting really, no breaks, no nothing. staff says i know it's hard, it hurts, i broke down today twice and had to remove myself while waiting in her rm for her. but it'll work. we're trying to break her, that's what we are doing. all she looked forward to all week was today, getting to see me alot. she didnt' get it. using me as bait didnt' fully work. she ate some of her food, yet that wasnt' good enough for them. they put her on extended meals. they alott 5 hours to see if shell eat the food. meanwhile telling her if you do not eat you will not see mom. i peered into room and saw her begging nurse to see me, crying and trying so hard to swallow the rest of her food. she must meet 1,200 calories a day according to them. i left the hospital each time completely numb. i'm just numb at this point. i'm sure the tears will come yet they havent' yet. thoughts??