and go apply for disability or SSDI or whatever I can get. My health is just too bad to cope with a job. May not be eligible for disability, but there has to be something to help me. We are sinking financially. Really sinking. Medical, even just pharmacy bill, is easily our biggest bill other than mortgage. It really just kills me to see my husband work so hard and get so little for himself. Or for us. Something has to change, or we will lose the house. I am scared. But as always I will find a way to cope. Susie ps. Have had all of you in my thoughts and prayers, but have just felt too cruddy and had too many medical tests for Jess and I to post much.