We have batteled ADHD, Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD), ODD, Bipolar, self medication for YEARS. I have documentation from early child hood of violent mood swings etc. He is now 16 and is out of control, being investigated for arson, is very destructive ( and always has been) skips schools and displays extreem anger outburts (usually his sister or brother's girlfriend are the brunt of it.)Has had multiple suicide attempts. psychiatric hospital stay. Anyway, this week he pulled a knife on me and oldest son and was in complete rage threatening to kill sons girlfried. We phoned police and he is in juvy. We had to go to detention hearing and request that son be detained because it is not safe for him to be here. We are requesting that he be sent to state psychiatric hospital for long term care and treatment. What we are doing here is just not cutting it..not to mention, after this episode we are greatly in fear for our live if he is here inour home. After all of this I feel still like I have betrayed him, to see the look of absolute hate in his eyes and he thinks that I do not lvoe him. I am overwhelmed with grief and guilt. Any advice, help, guidance, support, prayers? Me:42 chronic depression (mom depressed and grandmother bipolar) husband:41 occassionally moody, but all in very supportive and strong easy child 17 grew up too fast, went through phase of cutting and depression, stable now on medications and counseling as needed. easy child 12 grew up too fast, has been in fear for her life last year and half. Began having sever panik attacks, now on medications and dooing wonderful. She is an overachiever difficult child: 16 has been a challange since conception. Have tried pretty much every thing from A_Z and been told I was an overly imaginative mother trying to create problems. Inside somewhere (we see it occassionally) is a smart, witty, perfect attorny type individual with tons of potention. Just need to get a handel on it.