yet another migraine on a Sunday, sigh. The medications seem to work in the week (despite my high stress job which is a picnic compared to home ) but yesterday, difficult child was almost in a physical fight was ds. Sigh. found out that ex had told both kids that I want to medicate difficult child to "make her behave the way I want." Ds is asking me why I just don't send her to her dad. He's all mixed up and I felt all overwhelmed again at the idea of fighting ex, difficult child and now ds. At least now I'm aware of the poison being put into the kids' heads. Sad, heavy sigh. husband and I met with a therapist to work out our plan. difficult child has an evaluation (the emergency one) next week. I'm really apprehensive. I know she will give me a big fight to even get into the building when she finds out and her dad will have a fit too. husband and I keep examining our motives and I just want my difficult child to be healthier and feel love. We always knew that ex was sharing all kinds of junk with kids but now I feel immeasurably sad knowing that they have a lot to overcome as they grow. How difficult it is for them to be suspicious of their mother's motives and unable to really trust. ouch. I really pray God gives us the ability to hang on and give the kids a good cushion or whatever they need. No wonder difficult child has such bad symptoms now. Therapist knows difficult child and is sure there's Autism Spectrum Disorders (ASD) -- we think the behaviors are aligned with bipolar. But we'll have to see. any suggestions for the evaluation.? I'm sure once I get difficult child in the car that things will get pretty ugly thought about bringing one of her friends but I don't want to cut off her only avenue of trust -- it's quiet today, so far. But that could change at any time.