lovemysons
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From my daughter to me regarding a text an old online friend of Jarod’s sent to her for me…
Hey mama (my daughter), I was sent a message from one of Jarod’s old buddies. He wanted me to send this message along. I cried a bunch through it so make sure you are in a state of mind to accept what you’re reading and to feel the love that was poured into this letter…
Hi Mrs. ……..
I just found out about Jarod's death in late December last year. I only know Jarod from online, and I can't say I was close friends or anything like that, but he has left a huge impression. I met him back in 2015 on a chatroom and we had a good time connecting, he was always a good leader and provoker of deep philosophic conversation, and I was very curious about his ability to be so popular with and charm women, so we talked a bit, and he was really fond of a story I had of witnessing a UFO, he got me to repeat it to others multiple times. After January, 2016 we went our own ways, but I talked with him again briefly in November of 2016 when he was homeless in Boulder, Colorado. He gave me your phone number to send you a message about loving his kids, as the temperature that night was dropping to -25 or something insane and it seemed possible he'd freeze to death, but then I just used the number to nag you to send him some money. To be honest I didn't fully understand the situation at the time.
Anyway Jarod was a really beautiful person, as someone else once pointed out, he had the exterior of a Texan 'alpha male', oozing with charm (I actually saw him and referred to him as a sort of real life 'Sawyer', the "sexy bad boy" from the TV show LOST), but on the inside he was really pretty soft, dreamy, ethereal, full of love and the longing for love, he valued freedom and dignity and he was just a genuinely beautiful 'old soul', struggling to find meaning and love. He was pretty stereotypically Piscean in that he really didn't fit in with the profane 9-5 wageslavery quad-vaxxed overly-compliant podperson world, and he was constantly disappointed in it, I know the feeling. He was really, REALLY about "love", so it's sad that he struggled for so long with isolation and things like that. In March 2018 I checked up on him and he seemed to be doing fine, although I thought he had gone a bit 'koolade' with the religious stuff, I thought he was back on track so I sort of left him to his devices, thinking he'd be fine. I spotted him on a therapy site I'd recommended to him towards the end of 2018, he was on there as a listener helping people, I could see that he had already helped quite a few. If I'd known he was struggling like this I would have dedicated lots of time to trying to help him, but unfortunately I thought he was doing fine so I sort of left him to his life.
Interestingly I was able to determine exactly where I was and what I was doing in the hour that he died (using time zone converters, as I live on the other side of the planet). I went to the effort because I've always been curious about the possibility of weird synchronicities, like I was half wondering if maybe when he died I had thought of him suddenly and made a note of it - but I was disappointed to find that I'd just been watching a movie called 'Synchronic', which I didn't even really like that much. On second thought, though, I realised that there were some weird synchroncities - besides the movie title, the movie is about seeing 'time' and reality from a higher or transcendent perspective, that we are all much closer in some ways than we might imagine. There's also a quote that stood out to me, the movie quotes from a letter Einstein wrote after the death of a friend, "Now he has departed this strange world a little ahead of me. This means nothing. People like us who believe in physics know that the distinction between past, present, and future is only a stubbornly presistent illusion".
I can't really claim to 100% know what Jarod would say right now but I fully BELIEVE based on my experience of him that if Jarod could speak through me he'd tell you to be at peace, not to stress, not to feel sad - he's fine. He would also definitely send his love to his children. He was really proud of them, he showed off pictures of them to me back in 2015 and every time I saw him afterwards, they are really beautiful kids. I believe he would acknowledge that he had many failings, and ask forgiveness for not being there as much as he could, but many factors beyond his control made it hard, and he'd tell them to believe in themselves, in love, and in the wisdom of our creator who sometimes gives us a pretty shitty time in this world, but this is all a part of a process leading to greater love, and that ultimately we don't need to fear anything.
Goodbye and best wishes
P.S. Jarod loved connecting with music, so here's some music I listened to while remembering my friend Jarod.
- YouTube
www.youtube.com
www.youtube.com
www.youtube.com
This text message meant a lot to me as I know my son Jarod touched lives. I have shared this with his children who are beginning to want to know more about their dad through my eyes. One of his friends from California told me that I was the love of his life.
Miss my son everyday till we see each other again.
LMS
Hey mama (my daughter), I was sent a message from one of Jarod’s old buddies. He wanted me to send this message along. I cried a bunch through it so make sure you are in a state of mind to accept what you’re reading and to feel the love that was poured into this letter…
Hi Mrs. ……..
I just found out about Jarod's death in late December last year. I only know Jarod from online, and I can't say I was close friends or anything like that, but he has left a huge impression. I met him back in 2015 on a chatroom and we had a good time connecting, he was always a good leader and provoker of deep philosophic conversation, and I was very curious about his ability to be so popular with and charm women, so we talked a bit, and he was really fond of a story I had of witnessing a UFO, he got me to repeat it to others multiple times. After January, 2016 we went our own ways, but I talked with him again briefly in November of 2016 when he was homeless in Boulder, Colorado. He gave me your phone number to send you a message about loving his kids, as the temperature that night was dropping to -25 or something insane and it seemed possible he'd freeze to death, but then I just used the number to nag you to send him some money. To be honest I didn't fully understand the situation at the time.
Anyway Jarod was a really beautiful person, as someone else once pointed out, he had the exterior of a Texan 'alpha male', oozing with charm (I actually saw him and referred to him as a sort of real life 'Sawyer', the "sexy bad boy" from the TV show LOST), but on the inside he was really pretty soft, dreamy, ethereal, full of love and the longing for love, he valued freedom and dignity and he was just a genuinely beautiful 'old soul', struggling to find meaning and love. He was pretty stereotypically Piscean in that he really didn't fit in with the profane 9-5 wageslavery quad-vaxxed overly-compliant podperson world, and he was constantly disappointed in it, I know the feeling. He was really, REALLY about "love", so it's sad that he struggled for so long with isolation and things like that. In March 2018 I checked up on him and he seemed to be doing fine, although I thought he had gone a bit 'koolade' with the religious stuff, I thought he was back on track so I sort of left him to his devices, thinking he'd be fine. I spotted him on a therapy site I'd recommended to him towards the end of 2018, he was on there as a listener helping people, I could see that he had already helped quite a few. If I'd known he was struggling like this I would have dedicated lots of time to trying to help him, but unfortunately I thought he was doing fine so I sort of left him to his life.
Interestingly I was able to determine exactly where I was and what I was doing in the hour that he died (using time zone converters, as I live on the other side of the planet). I went to the effort because I've always been curious about the possibility of weird synchronicities, like I was half wondering if maybe when he died I had thought of him suddenly and made a note of it - but I was disappointed to find that I'd just been watching a movie called 'Synchronic', which I didn't even really like that much. On second thought, though, I realised that there were some weird synchroncities - besides the movie title, the movie is about seeing 'time' and reality from a higher or transcendent perspective, that we are all much closer in some ways than we might imagine. There's also a quote that stood out to me, the movie quotes from a letter Einstein wrote after the death of a friend, "Now he has departed this strange world a little ahead of me. This means nothing. People like us who believe in physics know that the distinction between past, present, and future is only a stubbornly presistent illusion".
I can't really claim to 100% know what Jarod would say right now but I fully BELIEVE based on my experience of him that if Jarod could speak through me he'd tell you to be at peace, not to stress, not to feel sad - he's fine. He would also definitely send his love to his children. He was really proud of them, he showed off pictures of them to me back in 2015 and every time I saw him afterwards, they are really beautiful kids. I believe he would acknowledge that he had many failings, and ask forgiveness for not being there as much as he could, but many factors beyond his control made it hard, and he'd tell them to believe in themselves, in love, and in the wisdom of our creator who sometimes gives us a pretty shitty time in this world, but this is all a part of a process leading to greater love, and that ultimately we don't need to fear anything.
Goodbye and best wishes
P.S. Jarod loved connecting with music, so here's some music I listened to while remembering my friend Jarod.
- YouTube
- YouTube
Enjoy the videos and music you love, upload original content, and share it all with friends, family, and the world on YouTube.
www.youtube.com
- YouTube
Enjoy the videos and music you love, upload original content, and share it all with friends, family, and the world on YouTube.
www.youtube.com
- YouTube
Enjoy the videos and music you love, upload original content, and share it all with friends, family, and the world on YouTube.
www.youtube.com
This text message meant a lot to me as I know my son Jarod touched lives. I have shared this with his children who are beginning to want to know more about their dad through my eyes. One of his friends from California told me that I was the love of his life.
Miss my son everyday till we see each other again.
LMS
