I'm not sure where to start with this so if it's a bit scattered, blame it on the subject of the post. I am on the verge of losing my job because of my performance. For whatever reason, I'm just not getting it. Not all of it, but enough that it's obviously affecting things. I plan on setting down with my boss tomorrow and "re-learning" the things I'm having issues with. I'm really hoping this works as this is a great job and I love it. It's probably the best job I've ever had on various levels. The big problem though is my brain. There are times I wonder if I'm losing it and other times I wonder if I have ADD. In some ways, I've always been a bit of a scatterbrain but in other ways, I can remember all types of things. But, I am (and always have been) easily distracted unless I'm in "the zone" with whatever I'm doing, I have a raging case of CRS (can't remember s***)...unless I write it down, at LEAST half the time I will forget and even if I write it down, unless that paper is right in front of me....I will still forget. Things like did I take the keys out of the car when I shut it off, what I walked into a room for (a lot) and even stuff that I do at work every day (with no problems) I will have a brain cramp and forget how to do it. I know I'm not doing a good job of describing this but I don't know how to. The thing is though, it got SOOOOOOOOOOOOO much worse about 10 years ago when I was put into a temporary drug induced menopause. OMG....my brain turned to mush. It recovered some but it hasn't been right since. Obviously if that is playing a part then not much could be done I'm sure. But, I still wonder about the ADD. Is there a test somewhere that I can do? I've GOT too keep this job. I love it and this just isn't like me. I'm kind of scared and worried.