I had to say melted down because melting down would be an understatement. I am in a very sad situation and I need advice. I am going to be very honest and I would prefer if there was no judgment or cruel words about how things are right now. I am worried about my son Elijah. I am going to take him to a pediatrician when we have the money because things are so bad around here. He is 3 years old and he has brought me a grown adult to my knees. I have given up, I can not be his parent. God knows I have tried. Don't get me wrong I love him more than life itself but its just too hard to be his mum. I am so tired the house work is not done to a point where the house is on the gross side because I just can not function with him as he is. He doesn't sleep he is up at 4 in the morning and I am not a person that can function without sleep. I can't function at all I am just to physically and emotionally tired. My partner is also on his last legs with him he can't take hime either he is at a point where he a loving father has to hold back from putting him through a wall. We are not violent people we love our children but that is word for word how he says he feels. I am just so tired and worried. Elijah barely speaks he screams if you tell him off or he just ignores it entirely. I am sure he does not grasp what he is doing wrong or getting in trouble for even though it is very clear. He wont play with toys and I mean he wont play with toys. He will play with everything else but not toys. If I am not with him, looking at him and interacting with him every minute he will act up and be even naughtier. He is never good there is just degrees of naughtiness. He just wont potty train I have given up on that because I don't know how to potty train a kid like him. If just for 2 minutes he would stop being naughty it would be nice. I am just so tired and he is a 24 hour a day job and I can't be a 24 hour a day mum. I really am in need of advice and support I have so much judgment and nastiness about my parenting and me in general like how he is is my fault and I just don't know what to do. I can not parent him and worse still his big sister is suffering for him. I love Elijah so much and out of my two kids he is the one I have connected with most because unlike my very independant daughter he has needed me. I always say my daughter got put in her walker and that was it she was ready to move out . My son was such a dependant baby and it was so nice but now he is a nightmare and getting too old to be pooping himself with kindergarten coming next year I atleast want him to potty train for me. At the moment I feel like my genes are deffective from having a miscarriage 19 weeks through my first pregnancy, my daughter has speech delays and now my son is just completely off the show. What can I say but HELP!