It's been obvious since I told my mom that I'm going to my grandmother's for a couple of days of respite for ME, that she's been against it. First, she was concerned about the dogs. Then she asked if I could take Wynter with me (kinda defeats the purpose). Then she wanted me to go over the weekend - leaving Friday night. That would make it harder for me to leave Wynter. Besides, she had school work to catch up on and I need to be here for that. She's concerned about Devon getting to school on time. He's 17. He's a big boy. He wasn't making it on time with me here, so I'm not sure why me not being here would make a difference. (By the way, that SAP - Suspension Alternative Program - was a joke. Started 30 minutes later than school, got done 30 minutes earlier than school lets out and they drove around all day delivering plaques. Yeah, that's going to deter him. And there were kids there that were there for their 3rd or 4th time so it's not like it's a one shot deal.) Now, since I'm not feeling good she doesn't think I should go. "If you get up there and aren't feeling well, then you're stuck and it's just going to be a mess." If I get up there and don't feel like I can drive home, Devon and his girlfriend can come get me. It's not that far. Only 15 minutes more than the drive to my mom's house (other direction, though), which she doesn't think is a big deal at all - going to her house, that is. I'm not supposed to sleep when my body needs it. I'm not supposed to sleep when medications make it impossible not to. In fact, I'm supposed to stop taking those medications even when they're working. I'm not supposed to give Wynter an inch, but AM supposed to give Devon a mile. I'm not supposed to NEED a break from my kids, my life. And (probably) mostly, I'm not supposed to go to my grandmother's. by the way, she's not offering to take Wynter for a few days so I can get a break. Why not? Because she doesn't want her. So, I have no choice but to leave if I want a break. Let me rephrase that: Need a break. There is so much history to this stuff. It's really ticking me off. Really.