Okay, so discharge is set for 3:00 this afternoon. difficult child has been inpatient for more than 30 days and has successfully been weaned from seroquel without much fanfare or any signs at all. I believe in my heart that nothing more could be accomplished inpatient and that it was a successful hospitalization due to stabilization and removal from medications, etc. So, how come I'm not completely psyched for discharge? I feel badly about it. During all of his other inpatient stays, I felt horrible every day he was there and couldn't wait to get him home. Of course, I'm glad he is coming home, but I think I am also nervous and the whole attitude that nothing ever changes anyway is first in my mind. I had that feeling when he went in and I still have it, despite all the positives that have come our way over the past month. Have I become jaded or too detached? Am I just guarding my hope that things will be better this time or am I just out of hope in that department? Have I reached the point where I'm knocking on depression's door myself? I am not liking myself for feeling this way this morning, that's for sure.