Just need to vent today. I have been meditating, reading, going to my therapist, all in an effort to find inner peace and to move forward in my life while my difficult child disintegrates before my eyes. Last couple of months have been to summarize, him trying to get off opiates several times, then quickly back to bad decisions, desperation, lies, etc... We gave him title to car we had been paying loan on just to break off the last reason he constantly calles for help with; car is always breaking down gas guzzler, etc... We paid off the loan so we no longer have to care what happens with car. He now has it in being worked on and spent ins money so he can't get it out. Also living in a rental car. I was having a peaceful morning when he called at 6:50 am form his grandmother's phone saying he had no shoes! How does n adult lose his shoes. I put two old pairs on front lawn with $40.00 and he talked to me from driveway. I looked at hi and just repeated over and over go get help You need help. So so so sad. But I have to say tHe meditating and therapy are making me see the situation clearly and I am not so distraught anymore, just sad.