toughlovin
Well-Known Member
Hi Everyone,
I really appreciate the support and having a place to vent about this stuff. Can you all just know that right now I am swearing up a blue streak even though I can't write it down here!
So I just heard from the IOP and my son did not show up today either which means he didn't go at all this week (he is supposed to go MWF). I know him and he is trying to make a point which is I can't control him. He has not communicated at all with me since his last comment and I have not contacted him either.
I know I just need to let it be... And when he is in trouble we will hear from him. I have no idea if he is drinking again but there is certainly a very good chance that he is. In which case he may very well get kicked out of the sober living... Of course even if he is not kicked out now he might be out at the end of the month when we don't pay the rent!!
So I am imagining him homeless again. And darn it but I am doing this thing tonight with a coming of age program with our church where we are going into the city to a program about the homeless.... It sounds like a great program in theory to teach young people about homelessness......but I have to get through it without thinking about my son in that situation.
I don't know what is going to happen.... But I know at this point I just need to keep letting go. I am having a pretty hard time feeling hopeful at this point.
I just have to remember he is on his own journey and he has to find his way. I can be on that ladder next to him helping him if he asks for it but I can't be climbing the ladder with him....otherwise when he falls I will be crushed.
TL
I really appreciate the support and having a place to vent about this stuff. Can you all just know that right now I am swearing up a blue streak even though I can't write it down here!
So I just heard from the IOP and my son did not show up today either which means he didn't go at all this week (he is supposed to go MWF). I know him and he is trying to make a point which is I can't control him. He has not communicated at all with me since his last comment and I have not contacted him either.
I know I just need to let it be... And when he is in trouble we will hear from him. I have no idea if he is drinking again but there is certainly a very good chance that he is. In which case he may very well get kicked out of the sober living... Of course even if he is not kicked out now he might be out at the end of the month when we don't pay the rent!!
So I am imagining him homeless again. And darn it but I am doing this thing tonight with a coming of age program with our church where we are going into the city to a program about the homeless.... It sounds like a great program in theory to teach young people about homelessness......but I have to get through it without thinking about my son in that situation.
I don't know what is going to happen.... But I know at this point I just need to keep letting go. I am having a pretty hard time feeling hopeful at this point.
I just have to remember he is on his own journey and he has to find his way. I can be on that ladder next to him helping him if he asks for it but I can't be climbing the ladder with him....otherwise when he falls I will be crushed.
TL