I think I've finally cracked. I just threw difficult child out of my apartment and told him to go be with his "friends". I am going through the MOST painful experience of my entire life, and it feels like no body gives a hoot. Even my own kid won't take the time to talk to me, doesn't care that I just stare at the wall. All he wants is a ride. I told him to get out. He comes over here (I pick him up this morning), plays on the computer, chats online and then asks me to take him to the mall and then pick him up again. I said no. I'm just too tired of NO ONE caring about MY feelings. I am SOOOOO sick of taking care of everybody else and then getting "pooped" on. I am losing it. I have no support, I have no one to help me and I am F-ING miserable.