So, if you want you can read what is going on with difficult child in general..........and why this is so divine. I was leaving for my counselors today, in tears, and a very, very old friend just stopped by, out of the blue. She told me that she want to give me something that I had loaned her a long time ago......... She handed me a book on tape about how to be a writer by Natalie Goldman that H. had given me a long, long time ago as a BD present. I was stunned, shocked, struck by tears. I have very, very little of H.'s things, as you know. Yet that book was one of most important gifts I can think of that she has given me over the years. She always wanted me to write. And suddenly, there was this angel presenting me this book, just as if H had just once again given it to me all over again. On top of crying all day about difficult child............I have held the book in my purse, as comfort. See, there are signs. She is here with me, guiding my every step.