I am new here. We are undergoing testing right now for ADHD for my 5-year-old. So far she has 'conduct disturbance' and I guess I'm a little in the dark on what that diagnosis is/means. She goes in tomorrow for an EEG and more testing. What's probably more interesting is that I have mixed-type bipolar type I and borderline personality disorder. It leads for a very interesting household. Mostly I feel a lot of guilt because my social anxiety doesn't allow me to go out and do things with my daughters that I'd like to do-- movies, amusement parks, shopping. I feel trapped. My own problems are not helping their problems either. One thing I did note is my daughter playing in a sandbox and when the conversation was over, the psychologist told me she perceives her life as chaotic. I wanted to cry. Her dad and I are divorced and he's made my life hell since then. He comes in and out of her life. The psychologist even recommended we move away from him, for everyone's mental health. So I have a lot on the table right now and my own mental illness isn't doing very good. I hope to learn from all of you and help gain some insight into what I should be doing and how to be a better mommy.