I am going to work on this. Make each day new. Try to forgive the old stuff and move forward. I need my family together at the dinner table and talking again. I am going to be the model for this. I will do my best to not rip out machine gun directions and questions. I will try to see out of difficult child's eyes more often-she makes valid points sometimes and I miss opportunity to praise her thinking. There is no peace in a house that harbors so many grudges and lacks forgiveness. Let me be a model for this (Holy cow will I need support!) I am going to enjoy the good. I will need help not making the future seem like a death march to apocolipse, but I'm going to try. Grilled burgers and potato salad and a movie tonight.