So K, for her last psychiatrist apt, we used the element of surprise and we had to drag her to the apt, she hid under the table... not good. So this time, Thursday, we told her about apt. we said we would do something something special after. The morning of she freaked out. She cried, screamed, hid, anxiety sky high. husband finally said "I am not doing this" "I am not driving 2 hours to traumatize her to sit with some jerk for 45 minutes who doesn't believe us for what?" So he called and left a message and psychiatrist called him back, he was in agreement with husband, (not about him being a jerk) but he wants us to push the Topamax faster. We aren't seeing really negative or positive yet... he said try to get her up to to 100mg ASAP, while she is on break. If she is tolerating it OK. We have her up to 75mg right now. She has some dulling, but that is it, besides all of her "normal" ups and downs... We did get her up to the ski hill yesterday, huge headache... lots of work. husband and I had to be next to her and N with the instructor, but it was SO worth it!!! She started getting the hang of it... starting making turns down the hill, little pizza wedges and french fries... they both had smiles the whole time!!! We tried to keep it fun and cheer them on the whole time... husband and I ran up and down the hill, back and forth... (my foot hurts) She did really well, so did N!!! I was so proud. Instructor said she is going to do well. On our way home we saw our first MOOSE of the season!!! Female... she was sauntering down the landing strip of our little airport... in town. We payed the price for our excitement today though, K was a wreck, couldn't think straight, was overly emotional, crying, angry... cycling. It is so frustrating, whenever we do anything, we have to plan on taking the next day off, she wouldn't even leave the house today to play out in the snow or go for a walk. Anyway just a little update, we are calling psychiatrist next week for update... The psychiatrist we are trying to see in AZ is going to call us towards the end of JAN.