ANewLife4Me
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My son is a phone sales representative and we went over to his home yesterday to active our new phones. He did not want us to wait around at the store, so set it all up the day before and only had to call in for the activation. Even though we can put our own glass screen protectors on, he did everything for us, he was proud to do so I think. Very sweet of him.
We decided to go out to dinner with him and his wife afterwards, and had such an amazing time! We have an on again - off again relationship because we are both stubborn redheads. lol We are working on things again this time, so far so good.
So why would I put anything bad to say about such a wonderful day? While at dinner I brought up his sister who is in jail. He is over her and only thinks of her when I mention it. I said to my son how free I felt of not feeling guilty that we were doing something and my daughter was at home……. This happened many times while she lived with us, her brother wanted nothing to do with her so we went to dinners without her. I joked it off but, did I really feel free? It’s nice not having to worry if your home will be destroyed when you come back. One time I did come home and we could not find my daughter….her car was outside, where was she? The last place I looked, the fear that she had killed herself…the garage. She was out there alright but, having some sort of mental issue, she was laying on the ground staring into space, hardly reacting to what I said. Drugs? I don’t know for sure. So that was the freeing part.
I usually post on Facebook about my adventures but did not this time. Concerned she should see it once she gets out, I blocked the account I know of but she has others. The shame I feel of hurting her that we are out having a good time with her brother…
I love the kids equally, never was there any favorites but, I do treat them differently. The one child mostly there and engaged, the other always not wanting to do anything at all with us, always withdrawing.
It makes me heartbroken that I cannot have the same relationship with both children equally.

So why would I put anything bad to say about such a wonderful day? While at dinner I brought up his sister who is in jail. He is over her and only thinks of her when I mention it. I said to my son how free I felt of not feeling guilty that we were doing something and my daughter was at home……. This happened many times while she lived with us, her brother wanted nothing to do with her so we went to dinners without her. I joked it off but, did I really feel free? It’s nice not having to worry if your home will be destroyed when you come back. One time I did come home and we could not find my daughter….her car was outside, where was she? The last place I looked, the fear that she had killed herself…the garage. She was out there alright but, having some sort of mental issue, she was laying on the ground staring into space, hardly reacting to what I said. Drugs? I don’t know for sure. So that was the freeing part.
I usually post on Facebook about my adventures but did not this time. Concerned she should see it once she gets out, I blocked the account I know of but she has others. The shame I feel of hurting her that we are out having a good time with her brother…
I love the kids equally, never was there any favorites but, I do treat them differently. The one child mostly there and engaged, the other always not wanting to do anything at all with us, always withdrawing.
It makes me heartbroken that I cannot have the same relationship with both children equally.
