So last week I let you all know that difficult child was not doing good at his placement, and I was worried. So many of you sent happy thoughts my way, and difficult children way, thank you. Since then, he has been doing SO much better, and really adapting to their rules and regulations. However, in the same breathe the state of Utah has suddenly decided that having kids over 18 in the same facility as minors is not acceptable. He is currently scheduled, to be released in 25 days because he will turn 18. He is making strides, and he is emotionally growing for the first time in years. This is the first time Utah has ever made a fuss about age limits for this facility. I am trying really hard to not take this as a setback, but none the less, I feel it is tragic. I am appealing the law, but I am also compelled to try and find placements for him over 18 as a backup. I find it striking that the minute I asked all of you to keep him in your thoughts that he suddenly started to do better - so - in humility - I ask the same in this situation. I personally feel that he should be able to complete his program there, and I ask and hope that he is given this opportunity. I am learning detachment in so many ways right now. It is like an exorcism. All of my intense feelings about past intimate relationships, parents, & difficult child I am learning to all keep at bay. And the loss of my sister......... well, that is just what started it all. I still talk to her every day in my soul. I know she is with difficult child. Thanks for all your thoughts and prayers. Life. Geesh.