I read and re-read all your messages and just wanted to thank you all for your kinds words, your prayers and especially your support.
I cannot express how I feel. Numb. Sad. Heartbroken. I miss him so much I can't stand it. It's eating me up inside. I told someone today, that after 8 days now, life has gone on for everyone and I feel stuck in some time capsule and I can't get out. The pain in unbearable.
Everyone has been very supportive of me and my boys and for that I am grateful. I am trying to stay strong, I try and pray but then I cry because I cannot understand why God would take him from me. he was only 15, he was such a good kid, I love him so much. I will be going to counseling because I cannot bear this alone. I am so glad that I have support not only with my friends and family, but also here. I've been coming here since Tim was about 7 y/o when I first found out he had bipolar. Since then, the last few years, he had grown into such a wonderful young man. It was so amazing, the progress he has made. He was so sick over the year with mono, the cat scratch disease, it just seems so unfair that this had to happen.
Please keep me and my family in your prayers to keep us strong. There are no leads that I know of, just that he was not the target but most likely the other guy (who was his older brothers friend) was. And that he was in the wrong place at the wrong time. I just don't understand how someone can take someone elses life so easily, especially someone as wonderful as my son. Pray they catch who ever did this so they can pay for this terrible sin.
I better go, I am starting to cry again.
God Bless you all.
Bette
I cannot express how I feel. Numb. Sad. Heartbroken. I miss him so much I can't stand it. It's eating me up inside. I told someone today, that after 8 days now, life has gone on for everyone and I feel stuck in some time capsule and I can't get out. The pain in unbearable.
Everyone has been very supportive of me and my boys and for that I am grateful. I am trying to stay strong, I try and pray but then I cry because I cannot understand why God would take him from me. he was only 15, he was such a good kid, I love him so much. I will be going to counseling because I cannot bear this alone. I am so glad that I have support not only with my friends and family, but also here. I've been coming here since Tim was about 7 y/o when I first found out he had bipolar. Since then, the last few years, he had grown into such a wonderful young man. It was so amazing, the progress he has made. He was so sick over the year with mono, the cat scratch disease, it just seems so unfair that this had to happen.
Please keep me and my family in your prayers to keep us strong. There are no leads that I know of, just that he was not the target but most likely the other guy (who was his older brothers friend) was. And that he was in the wrong place at the wrong time. I just don't understand how someone can take someone elses life so easily, especially someone as wonderful as my son. Pray they catch who ever did this so they can pay for this terrible sin.
I better go, I am starting to cry again.
God Bless you all.
Bette