toughlovin
Well-Known Member
So I have been thinking about this a bit. In my conversation with my son yesterday I was getting upset.... And I said to him you have put me through H***....and he kind of laughed and said you have no idea what h*** is. And to some extent he is right... In that he has been both in jail and on the streets and I am sure those were awful for him.
But he really has no concept of what it is like to love a child who struggles like he does. The heartache it brings.
And then I get this threat that we will end up with no relationship. So he knows I want a relationship with him and so thinks he can push my buttons by threatening not to have one!!
So I was thinking about it today...... And the hardest thing about him cutting off contact would be not knowing if he was ok. If I knew he was alive and doing well I could live with no contact. It would sadden me of course but my main thing is I want him to be successful and happy. That is what is important to me.
He called me vindictive yesterday.... Which is so far from the truth. I just don't feel that way towards him at all. I am not saying I have never felt that way to anyone but I don't feel that way to him. I just don't.
I think it is really hard to understand the feelings a good parent has towards their kids until you are a parent.
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But he really has no concept of what it is like to love a child who struggles like he does. The heartache it brings.
And then I get this threat that we will end up with no relationship. So he knows I want a relationship with him and so thinks he can push my buttons by threatening not to have one!!
So I was thinking about it today...... And the hardest thing about him cutting off contact would be not knowing if he was ok. If I knew he was alive and doing well I could live with no contact. It would sadden me of course but my main thing is I want him to be successful and happy. That is what is important to me.
He called me vindictive yesterday.... Which is so far from the truth. I just don't feel that way towards him at all. I am not saying I have never felt that way to anyone but I don't feel that way to him. I just don't.
I think it is really hard to understand the feelings a good parent has towards their kids until you are a parent.
TL