Here is my new thread. It says what I am feeling. I need your strength as so many of you have given and I think i am going to be ok - so far. We will see what happens when he gets out of jail. I dont even know if he has any clothes to wear. The family he was living with said he looked pitiful when he came over to there house to get his clothes. She said his shoes were wet from walking in the rain. When I hear these stories about my own son I just want to cry forever. I cant believe he is living like that and then I think well if he was at home he wouldnt be living like this and put myself on a guilt trip - but that would be allowing him to use drugs in our home and have a comfortable place to do it. I cant help him kill himself no matter how he looks. Keep me in your prayers for strength and I will keep you posted!