If I don't vent I don't stand a chance of sleeping tonight. Seems around here we're on a roll of bad carp coming down. First Nichole with the surgeries, then mother in law, then my computer died, husband got pneumonia and was off work a week (driving me insane the whole time), then he got a flat tire which he still hasn't replaced. sister in law got informed of layoffs at work. Fortunately he's not being laid off but they have switched the days he works, so easy child had to ask me if I'd babysit when she works again. (of course this happened after she'd arranged to work per sister in law's schedule before the layoffs) And mother in law's pain mounts daily and her misery increases ten fold. And because of all of this carp...I still haven't been able to catch up on cleaning the house. I *think* I managed to pawn off the babysitting onto someone else. I'm not interested in doing it again because I know once I do, easy child won't even look for another sitter. She's done it to me twice now. She's not thrilled with me, but she's dealing with it. We're broke and I don't know where husband is going to get the money for that darn tire. But he can't keep driving to cincy on that little spare thing they give you. Nichole has had nothing but doctor appoints since friday. The pics of her liver were sent via fam doctor to UC to see what they think. So I've watched Aubrey while she goes to each appointment. Today watched Darrin and Brandon too as easy child had her finals to take in Dayton. Then just as I think I can unwind for a quite evening at home........The nursing home calls. mother in law needs me now. God help me she does this every time I skip a day of seeing her. I didn't go see her yesterday because I was taking a very much needed day to myself. I'd planned to see her first thing tues morning. So I get there and mother in law is in horrendous pain. PT has finally been walking her. And I'm sorry but I think that hip is broken. Her pain is now intolerable. Even with percacets and tylenol arthritis, she's not getting any relief. So what did she need me for?? She was confused about her medication dosages. Stupid nurse last night messed a dose up and gave her 2 percacets at once. mother in law slept like a baby relatively pain free. But of course after PT when mother in law asked for the same, no one would give it to her that way because that's not how it was ordered. I talked to medication nurse...again. (we're getting to know each other quite well) I looked at the doctor orders myself. Except for the mess up last night, she's getting them as ordered. So I explained to her again. Her doctor was in and he thinks the hip is broken too. So? Why did the idiot talk her out of the MRI that would have told us that?? And now he suggested surgery. mother in law is in such agony she's seriously considering it. Not in hopes of getting better, but in hopes of dying on the table. in my opinion surgery is not going to help mother in law. At 95 she has a super high risk of dying on the table or never waking up. (and she has issues with shaking off anesthetic anyway) She is too weak and frail to manage the intensive PT that follows such a surgery. It was grueling for my Mom who is 20 yrs younger than mother in law. But mother in law is in so much pain she just wants relief. Her 20 days at the nursing home is nearly up. And she's worse than when she went in. Not the fault of the staff. They've been good to her. Just the way it is. I know money is super tight with her budget, but other than that I know nothing of her finances. I always figured it was none of my business. But I seriously doubt she can pay 4000 a month for the nursing home ontop of her monthly bills with the house. And there is no way in hades we can sell the house that fast. (if it sells on this market at all) Meanwhile I think of husband's brother and wife all comfy down in virginia and I want to scream. I'm left with all the heavy work while they enjoy their retirement. I like sister in law, always have......don't give a hoot for husband's brother. But it's not fair all of this got dropped into my lap when I've already got too heavy a d*mn load to carry. easy child tells me tonight "Mom, you have too much on your plate, you're going to snap under the strain." Gee?? Ya think?? "So? How much are you going to take over?" easy child "Me? I have blah blah blah going on......" Yeah. I thought so. Someone reserve me a padded room in a nice quite place. If things keep progressing as they are.....I'm goint to need it in the not so distant future. Now, hopefully I can sleep. mother in law has a list of things for me to do in the morning......and I have Aubrey while Nichole goes to class in the afternoon.